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For the record I am glad I did the A-Touristic series because I was starved of opportunities and made something fresh that I never would have made in Alfred. However for anyone reading this stay away from Arcadia University's summer abroad program. I was mislead as to the quality of the facilities and was not compensated for disappointments. So if you want to do a program with art classes. Don't approach Arcadia...there is poor correspondence between the American and Spanish schools.
Well I can no longer shoot a photo with my left eye anymore. Since high school my eyesight in my left eye has gone from 20/20 to 20/40. My vision blurs past 20 feet in front me. The color negatives I shot this week were generally working. But some shots are just blury because I cannot see with full clarity. Particualry on Sunday a shot that would have been great was completely altered because I focused poorly. Unless I am wearing glasses will I shoot with my left eye seeing. Now my right eye with full vision will be my primary scope.
I guess my sight is getting worse and worse. Hopefully I can still see at age 40 but this has never been a problem for me in past photographing. It's a little disheartening.
In my current Photo Class which leans towards a photo journalist or documentary approach to storytelling I have to form a theme for a portfolio. A week and half has gone by in the class and by midterm I need images and ideas for pictures and format. So far I haven't focused on any subject matter primarily. Most of the shots I have taken have been of angled architecture shot, a cemetary, advertisements, and candid shots of people in Spain. Really I am just writing right to sort it out in my head.
What I do not want of course is to produce a cliche photo series of just buildings or the homeless (these were first impressions). However the income bracket here is a mystery to me in Barcelona. In the daytime it seems like no one works and that everyone drinks beer on break. There are poor and beggar citizens but seem docile and the city itself is not crime ridden except for petty theft. Exploring the living standards and realities of Barcelona is a possibility for one.
The Graveyard I visited also haunted me with coos of pidgeons, flies buzzing around dead flowers, and faded pictures of the deceased. Also grave site are different from the yards I see in America. Instead if grassy fields and tombstones fenced by iron gates...Spain has blocks of tombs in blocks with names and display cases. I only saw a little of the yard but will definitely return to see more and formulate on it.
The simpler idea is just to photograph people in Spain, particulalry pretty women since they seem to be abundant here. However I do not know what the program would and it is disimilar to the work I usually do in photo with manipulating scenary. Recently I viewed a film on Henri Cartier Bresson which has inspired me to take more instantaneous and reflexive shooting. Also I am no longer asking permission from people in most situations too.
Maybe I will become a braver photographer out of this experience but writing this down has helped me square it down to subjects as for format and digital or film is still yet to be seen. I have to get my color film developed still and see what it looks like for images sake.
There will be pictures on the wordpress site soon though.
I'm feeling a little twisted inside right now about my stay in Spain. Namely that the photo course I am enrolled in is not what I was expecting. I thought I was going to be able to do color negative photo printing on photo paper. It may work out with scanning film negatives and using inkjet printing. But besides this school problem I feel like my money is being drained from me here. It's only been barely a week and I've burned through many Euros. Overall I just feel guilty. So I'm going to have cut back a lot on where my money goes.
I'm glad I came but I need to it to be within reason.
I have to do a midterm about tesselation which includes a reading. I loath the class but the cool part is that I just realized tesselation is a large part of my free form synthesist drawings. I've never taken much of an interest in MC Esher but the patterns he found inspiring translate to my own view. Ever since I was a child and still now I see small forms and shapes created by my perception of texture on surfaces. From ugly walls and floors to the Rockefeller collection in the plaza I am obsessed with transmutated objects.
A lot of my drawings have remained dormant in my sketchbooks. Maybe this whole time I should have been printing these lines. I want to transfer these images to silk screens and steel plates soon. I've been waiting too long and need to explore these options farther. It may also turn out to be my most marketable productions. I'm just flustered I'm coming to this discovery so late.
Lately I've felt so disconnected fro all the work I've done at Alfred for the past 2 years. Since taking neon and video I have had no time to focus on photo or print. I can't do sculpture here so I'm pissed about that. I just have so many interests I'll never take all the classes I want to take here.
I still haven't got excited about neon because I haven't made anything yet thought I'm going to start soon. Education minor has been a real downer...I hate my 405 class and don't feel connected enough to my observation work. Now I wish I hadn't done this minor because I could take art electives instead.
The bright side is that video is fun and I'm increasingly more interested in it. I just feel twisted inside about my progress now. I hate these restrictions.
So I'm pretty sure my professor Fred Tschida has put on his shit list. I didn't do this assignment on glass tubing seals he gave because my seals kept breaking and I was struggling from a bad demo that was given in class. I think I have improved my seals since last week but it is not apparent since I didn't have time to complete 30 seals in 3 rods. The world is riding my ass right now but I'm not very worried. Things will get better but everyone needs to STFU about immaterial neon lessons.
This Semester I didn't get the grades I felt I deserved for the amount of work I did. For a majority of my life I didn't get A's often until I was in college. I think I worked harder than most students in my classes and I still did more and better work than sophmore year.
I shouldn't think of grades as being the end all be all because typically I don't. But now I saw them as measures by professionals and it seems like they weren't impressed. I had positive critiques and constant progress all year round. So why the B's? I guess these lack luster grades have made my opinion of my work falter a little. I don't feel as confident in them as I did before. Maybe I'mjust relying too much of the opinion on my professors.
At my up coming show perhaps I can better re-evaluate the standing of photography at least.
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