Well I can no longer shoot a photo with my left eye anymore. Since high school my eyesight in my left eye has gone from 20/20 to 20/40. My vision blurs past 20 feet in front me. The color negatives I shot this week were generally working. But some shots are just blury because I cannot see with full clarity. Particualry on Sunday a shot that would have been great was completely altered because I focused poorly. Unless I am wearing glasses will I shoot with my left eye seeing. Now my right eye with full vision will be my primary scope.

I guess my sight is getting worse and worse. Hopefully I can still see at age 40 but this has never been a problem for me in past photographing. It's a little disheartening.
In my current Photo Class which leans towards a photo journalist or documentary approach to storytelling I have to form a theme for a portfolio. A week and half has gone by in the class and by midterm I need images and ideas for pictures and format. So far I haven't focused on any subject matter primarily. Most of the shots I have taken have been of angled architecture shot, a cemetary, advertisements, and candid shots of people in Spain. Really I am just writing right to sort it out in my head.

What I do not want of course is to produce a cliche photo series of just buildings or the homeless (these were first impressions). However the income bracket here is a mystery to me in Barcelona. In the daytime it seems like no one works and that everyone drinks beer on break. There are poor and beggar citizens but seem docile and the city itself is not crime ridden except for petty theft. Exploring the living standards and realities of Barcelona is a possibility for one.

The Graveyard I visited also haunted me with coos of pidgeons, flies buzzing around dead flowers, and faded pictures of the deceased. Also grave site are different from the yards I see in America. Instead if grassy fields and tombstones fenced by iron gates...Spain has blocks of tombs in blocks with names and display cases. I only saw a little of the yard but will definitely return to see more and formulate on it.

The simpler idea is just to photograph people in Spain, particulalry pretty women since they seem to be abundant here. However I do not know what the program would and it is disimilar to the work I usually do in photo with manipulating scenary. Recently I viewed a film on Henri Cartier Bresson which has inspired me to take more instantaneous and reflexive shooting. Also I am no longer asking permission from people in most situations too.

Maybe I will become a braver photographer out of this experience but writing this down has helped me square it down to subjects as for format and digital or film is still yet to be seen. I have to get my color film developed still and see what it looks like for images sake.

There will be pictures on the wordpress site soon though.

I'm feeling a little twisted inside right now about my stay in Spain. Namely that the photo course I am enrolled in is not what I was expecting. I thought I was going to be able to do color negative photo printing on photo paper. It may work out with scanning film negatives and using inkjet printing. But besides this school problem I feel like my money is being drained from me here. It's only been barely a week and I've burned through many Euros. Overall I just feel guilty. So I'm going to have cut back a lot on where my money goes.

I'm glad I came but I need to it to be within reason.